This thing is for real! In about seven weeks I will have a new little baby in my arms. I'll smell that new baby smell, and hear that faint (at first!) little helpless cry throughout the house. Oh my, I'll be responsible for every move this tiny thing makes. It makes me giddy and scared all at the same time. I pray for an ease and a calmness in knowing that I've done this before, that I can handle it much better than I did last time. I pray ALOT~
My nights are alittle less about sleep these days, and more about finding a comfortable spot in bed that keeps my legs, back, and tummy from aching-good practice for my next endeavor, I know.
Ok, honestly it's not so much about the comfort either...I'm constantly thinking of what I STILL NEED TO DO! The room hasn't been painted, there is no bedding in the crib, there is not one diaper in this house; we are completely unprepared at this point! I was done with every part of my list for Chase by month 7...where did time go for "Pria preparation"??
Also keeping me up, is the change our whole family will go through in just 7 weeks. I think Chase knows-and shows-his own apprehension too. In the midst of his frequent cries for attention, which are out of his character, he runs through the house to hug his baby sister even now, and he is in love with her already. Yet still I worry for him.
I worry about the strain of another newborn in the relationship between me and Sean. We have a great marriage in my eyes-respect, joy, laughter, love, understanding, compromise...and I pray that we learn to juggle our new life as easily as we did when we were blessed with Chase!
I KNOW that God is in control, I KNOW that the story of the Hope family was written long ago by the greatest author, I KNOW that He will never give me more than I can handle, and I KNOW that I can only survive and thrive by asking for God's help and giving HIM all the glory for every accomplishment within my family. It's remembering those truths in the wee hours of the morning that I have trouble with-luckily I've been using that time to pray for peace and give that time to God, so that the lack of sleep doesn't interfere with patiently shepherding Chase throughout the day!
Do everything you do to the Glory of the One who made you!!! I put this on my Facebook status after hearing the song from Steven Curtis Chapman.....and it puts my entire day-good parts and sinful parts-in perspective for me! If you know that you can glorify God in even the smallest thing, it makes it harder for sin to creep into those days when you feel lowest.
This post is kind of a mess...but forgive me, I'm alittle out of my mind! October 5th may be my due date, but according to my doctor yesterday....there's a good chance I won't make that date---AHH, I need to hurry and prepare! :)))
Thanks for reading, and praying for me and my fam too!
