Fall is here, and my head is swirling with all the "traditions" of the season-all those special moments I get to share with my hard working husband and unpredictable 2 year old. I remember each year as a mother so clearly, and I am excited to make more memories with my family! Even more special will future holidays be, as I walk through changes in my grandfather who has dementia. I want so much for my son to know him as I do. Tears will be shed, as they are at this moment, but the joy of my Chase running to him for a hug and a "lo five" will surely be the best memories of this time. I see grandaddy light up when he sees Chase, regardless of how good or bad the day has been for him-priceless. I pray for my grandmother, who has chosen to walk with him through the changes alone (so far)-without the help of hired caretakers. I pray that she gets strength and compassion that only God can give her-because in her words, "We vowed to be with eachother in good times and bad". How amazing a bond they have, for over sixty years now. It is my hope that I can enjoy good times and bad with Sean, for many years to come, just as they have. I lean on Him when my thoughts jump into the future, which is uncertain, and will be unhappy and heartbreaking; I must enjoy NOW. My grandfather is an amazing man with stories of the past that make me burst with pride-that's my grandaddy! He's accomplished so much in his life, and been a believer for as long as I can remember. I know that this walk will not be lonely for him, God holds his hand and prepares him for a life even greater than his life now. I am blessed and honored by each moment, each memory I get to make with this God loving, God trusting, God fearing man. This holiday season will be full of emotion, but mostly I pray that the holidays will be full of JOY!!! I pray for each family member touched by my grandfather, that they enjoy every moment with my grandaddy. Thank you God for allowing me to know and love a man after your own heart-and for giving me the peace in knowing that each difficult day is comforted by You. I love my family, and can't wait to spend special moments with them this season, and to hear some stories from the past too. :)
Meeting Chase!Amanda
3 comments:
I love this picture of your sweet grandaddy : )
Umm..yeah...you could have at least warned me before reading this!!! Reading this + pregnancy hormones = crying cousin. A wonderful reflection of a man we love so much (and the woman who gives her all for him).
Sorry Laura!--But we do love that man. I just can't stop thinking, and needed to write :)
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